I have FOUND myself

Many people say I have changed, but the truth is I have just FOUND myself. Since I have become a mother the way I see things and they way I react to things is completely different. I have always been the girl who let people walk all over her. The girl who was so naive. The girl who didn't have a care in the world. Just was out to have fun and live life. But, I truly feel that I am actually LIVING life now. I'm really not all that complex. I wish that people would try not to read me. And let me open myself up to them at my own will. I'm proud of who I am and where I come from. I feel if someone can't accept that, or deal then to move along. I have no room for pessimistic people in my life. I try to stay optimistic, even through the up most shittiest of times. I always look at the positive side of things. I feel every negative will turn out positive one fine day. I've loved, lost, cried, and hurt; all of which have made me a stronger individual and quite possibly molded a bit of a bitch in my veins, but I'm grateful for every experience I've encountered along my passage in life. I love my life. I don't sugar coat anything, I wouldn't want that done to me. If I like you, I'll tell you. If you hurt me, prepare to be shut out. I've made mistakes in my life. I've let people take advantage of me, and excepted way less than i deserve. But, I've learned from my bad choices and even though there are some things I can never get back and people who will never be sorry, I'll know better next time and I wont settle for anything less than i deserve. You will always hear those infamous words, 'you'll never meet anyone like me', but I guarantee not everyone holds true to those words. I want the truth that hurts over the lies that lose my respect. I do not have time for petty bullshit.

I adore my friends and my family, they mean the world to me. I've got a great family! They never judge me and have truly blessed me with the life I live. I found over time that it truly is a gift to find 'REAL' friends whom you can trust, confide in and rely on. Those amazing once in a life time friends.I would rather have a handful of the good ones, then a ton of the fake ones, or the ones that will leave, or the ones that use. I feel that I am GROWING UP. Growing past all the dumb issues. The things in life that do not matter. I learned fast who I could trust and who I shouldn't. I have learned that when it comes to work you need to keep personal out and business business business. Everything will be OK... that's my new motto. No matter how hard times will get or have gotten they will end up OK in the end. I see myself as that type of person that will do anything to get a smile out of you. I have always tired to make everyone happy, even if it meant that I wouldn't be. I have learned that you cant do that or people will walk all over you. I had to learn the hard way. I am trying my best at being a mom, and I think I am doing a pretty damn good job at it! It just all fell together and life couldn't be better. I have become a better person. I am stronger and wiser. I am a mom. I am a girlfriend. I am a friend and a daughter. I feel I am more me than I have ever been.

Mommy Bee, that's me, that's my life. Some people have said that being a mom, having a family, and boyfriend is controlling my life. I find that ridiculous... and when you have a family your life will change and for the better and you will understand what being a mom is all about.