Days come and go. I find myself cherishing the few days that I have away from work. I like that I have two WHOLE days with my daughter. I don't want to miss a thing she does... and while I am here at work I could be missing those priceless "First Times."
She is growing up so fast. I feel that she was just growing inside of me and now she is going to be One. Where has the time gone?
Last night I was awaken by the sounds of my daughters scared cry. Night Mare? I wasn't sure what was wrong. I was holding her so tight letting her know everything would be OK. She laid there crying as if nothing would be OK. Tears rolling down her face. I know she is becoming more aware of things as she gets older and she doesn't know what certain sounds are or things are. She was scared and needed mommy and daddy.
Its crazy... you will do anything for your kid. She can't live without me. They are such helpless little beings. We are EVERYTHING to them. I don't just have a kid, I have someones life in my hands, yet ironically, my life lays in hers.
I am sorry I am just rambling on and on. I am not too sure what to "blog" about. All my thoughts right now are running around in my head. I can't focus on one topic.
Life as "I" know it is a complete roller coaster.... will it ever be smooth sailing? I honestly dont think so. I find when life gets hard it only gets harder before it gets better. I am very thankful for my family and my friends. With out them I wouldn't be where Iam at today... as a mom, a daughter, a girlfriend, a friend... Its crazy to think that all of our failures, accomplishments, tears, laughs.... they mold us. They make us stronger... sometimes weaken us. I wish at times I was stronger when it came to certain issues and weaker in others. But, that is where I as an individual have to learn to overcome those issues.
And boy... is that hard. Im such an emotional person... more now that Iam a mother then ever before. As a mom you have someones life in your hands... your own comes second. Well in my eyes that is how it is. She is first... and always will be.
I think for now I will leave with these thoughts... I should probably work.. lol.
2 comments:
A Mother's love is something
that no on can explain,
It is made of deep devotion
and of sacrifice and pain,
It is endless and unselfish
and enduring come what may
For nothing can destroy it
or take that love away . . .
It is patient and forgiving
when all others are forsaking,
And it never fails or falters
even though the heart is breaking . . .
It believes beyond believing
when the world around condemns,
And it glows with all the beauty
of the rarest, brightest gems . . .
It is far beyond defining,
it defies all explanation,
And it still remains a secret
like the mysteries of creation . . .
A many splendoured miracle
man cannot understand
And another wondrous evidence
of God's tender guiding hand.
That little girl has an amazing Mommy!!! She is so luck to have you. Keep your head up mama, I'm here for you. We are in it together for sure! All the crap that life has to offer, I know you can relate! XOXO
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